one or three

what's worse..

being number one or three?

one,

you are alone.

in a race, in a competition, you may have won, but you are, alone.

your rivals despised you

did runner-up and second runner-up truly shake your hands as an act of honor?

salute you?

despite how professional they are,

they might have felt it,

i hated you. 

hated your guts.

envy.

the loner, i am

i am an introvert.

introverts, usually are not interested in talking.

or social interaction.

doesn't mean they couldn't talk

they would talk endlessly if it's involving interesting matter, for them.

because they tend to not talk,

they tend to be in reclusive manner.

people might perceive them as arrogant, shy, unfriendly, and anti-social

that's just how they are, we are, i am.

kind of pathetic.

what they don't know though,

we're like that because you, you and you are not worth their time.

you talk shit about silly things

outsider

when you finally realize you are just an outsider..

what do you do?

because i was alone

because.

just because.

i was alone.

i seem lonely.

i was independent.

i always managed by my own.

i was comfortable that way.

yet,

you..

you came.

you thought i needed someone.

you accompanied me.

for a moment there, i saw you as a nuisance.

nevertheless, you were always there.

your smile.

you were close to me.

like nobody else were.

you've saved me.

i wonder, why me?

could be..

you were alone too?

bp/mthon: caucasian grandpa

Masa aku otw dari LCCT ke stesen KTM Nilai hari tu....naik bas Airport Liner..aku terperasan seorang datuk (nota: grandpa) berbangsa Caucasian ni. agaknya berumur sekitar 70an. Mungkin 80.

backpack/marathon: prologue

agak-agak kamu la, aku ni orang yang macam mana?

aku suka duduk rumah ja.

bukan tak suka berjalan, mendokusai semua tu bagi aku.

i can have fun at home too.

i can be so addicted to games. and there are books to read. shows/anime to watch.

I, WAS, like that.