it's 2015

..let's play this "it's 2015"

it's 2015..

..and I'm still blogging.

tentang puisi (kah?)

Hai.

Lama tak berblog.

Pembaca bisu blog ini ramai (baca: dari pelbagai golongan) bagi komen secara peribadi pada saya.

"blog sudah jadi blog puitis lepas grad"

"tak faham...puitis sangat"

"ada bakat..bila nak bukukan?"


Terima kasih kerana masih peduli akan blog ini wahai sobat sekalian.

what the hell have i been doing these past few years?

..

i can't keep being like this.

it's time for a change.

it's time for a plan.

things that you can't have, they are for a reason.

..

because i was alone

because.

just because.

i was alone.

i seem lonely.

i was independent.

i always managed by my own.

i was comfortable that way.

yet,

you..

you came.

you thought i needed someone.

you accompanied me.

for a moment there, i saw you as a nuisance.

nevertheless, you were always there.

your smile.

you were close to me.

like nobody else were.

you've saved me.

i wonder, why me?

could be..

you were alone too?

dietitian #1

ramai student lepasan matrik, asasi atau diploma yang terserempak dengan blog aku sebenarnya.. sebab entri dietetik? aku tu.

tapi aku rasa sekarang semakin ramai student dietetik.. yang punya blog. dan suka menulis tanpa selindung apa. they can read the other blogs that talk more about it.

apabila kereta terkandas di tepi jalan ketika hendak ke tempat kerja (tajuk entri paling panjang setakat ini..hoi kau tambah ayat lagi)

Ha!

Hari ni banyak benda aku belajar. Dan banyak yang aku deal. Mematangkan diri. Mendewasakan diri. Menunaikan tanggungjawab. Aku yang dulu mungkin tak dapat selesaikan masalah ini dengan sebegitu tenang. Aku yang dulu mungkin akan "escape", lari dari masalah. Ya. Betul.

Aku yang dulu bukanlah yang sekarang.

So pagi tadi cam biasa pukul 7 pagi, aku bertolak pergi kerja. 7 tepat.

Oh lengangnya jalan. "Where's everyone?" I thought.

Aku pun bajet leh sampai 7.30 la Kelana Jaya..kalau hari biasa selalunya mengambil masa 40-50 minit. Trafik di KL camni la.

Oh salah jangkaanku kali ini. Nasib kurang baik.

I don't know.

Is it true you put such high hope and trust on me? Why? What do I have? What do you see in me? Why me?

Okane #2

Money is not everything, but everything needs money.

That's what they said.

the WHY

Everyone in that community asked me, "what is your the why?" The reason for me to do this.

Your reason must be strong. Strong enough to make you moving on, able to face any obstacles in the future, not giving up.

Well, my friends, I got bunches.

Kuala Lumpur.

Tokyo wa kowaitte iteta...
Tokyo sangat menakutkan!

Aku tak pernah imagine aku akan datang bekerja di KL.

Dan aku tak expect langsung aku akan jumpa macam-macam benda kat sini.

RECAP: chanz in 2011

Blog is a diary right? So aku nak recap sikit sebanyak pasal kisah hidup aku tahun 2011 yang takde la spesel mana, sama ja macam korang.

Even Now I Still Think I Should Have Taken Engin

The worst thing happen when you are sitting alone in a room, suddenly out of blue you will have a reminiscence of your life, regretting your actions and decisions.

You keep asking yourself WHY and WHY did you do this.. Why did you choose to do that??

Recalling when I was a form 5 student, I've decided! I should have done Engin! And....in Japan! :P Well, my target actually is to go to Japan studying, and just to happen that JPA/MARA only offers engin course in Japan..

Let's palmface.

Pic credited to manga Ikigami.

I NEVER THOUGHT THAT I AM GOING TO DO DIETETICS COURSE.

If I was to blame my dad, no, he's not totally at fault. He did however encourage me to take food related course. When I said I want to be an engineer, he.. erm, "against it" is not the appropriate word..erm..he just being a DAD lah. He worried too much. He heard stories from his friends and took examples from their unsuccessful and jobless engineering-graduated kids, and he, I don't know, he just being unsupportive. Only seeing the negative sides of it. Only my brother supported me that time, but I never listen to him because..I never like him. When my father said to do a food-related course, (reasons that this industry is growing & people keep talking about food nowadays, thus food is important) 

I followed his suggestion. 

Plus (to make things worse), in the family, I am the most obedient child other than my eldest sister. My dad said so himself. These are his words,

"Yang selalu dengaq kata abang akim dengan kakak ja. Sebab tu gigi depa elok masa kecik-kecik, tak rongak. Dekyam, abang Asan hang gigi takdak, sebab tak dengaq kata!"

Okay, he always using these words to my headstrong little sister who is still in school because..well, she is a teenager! What can we expect?

(She is your typical teenager who idolizes the national hiburan industry too much)

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Back to the topic.

It is actually a decision of a last minute. I've heard of this course during a uni exhibition in the matric. It seems interesting when the person explaining it. So I put it in the third choice. After we got the matric results, we need to fill the UPU for the second time. THIS IS THE TIME WHEN I CHANGED MY CHOICE. I might say that it is a spontaneous action. I change it at the last minute. From third choice, it went to the first choice. I don't know. I don't know why. I don't know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's all.

P/S: Wait, maybe because I decide things based on intuition? Perhaps..the explaination from this web says it all..
P/S2: dindiet agrees about me being a INTP.
P/S3: To darkartz, yeah I know, think positive right! :|
P/S4: Does this entry emo? No, right? Just stating the facts..No profanity languages here..

Noted by,

10:22pm, 22/02/11

chanz

Kenapa Saya Tak Suka Pedas

"Jom makan.."

"Makan apa.."

"Kuew tiow goreng mamak..pedasss punya.."

"Err.."

Aku nak habag mai kat hampa..aku orang Penang. Biasa la makanan pedas. Tapi sekarang aku dah tak suka pedas! Sebab apa? Sebab...okay, kepada budak diet pi belek lecture note Prof Manan sem lepas tak pun buku Understanding Normal & Clinical Nutrition. Tajuk Food Choice - Negative Associations. Yang lain, baca blog ni ja pun takpa boleh paham.

Menurut negative association of food choice tu, orang akan tak suka sesuatu makanan tu disebabkan perkara dulu yang negatif berlaku pada beliau. Contoh ar, masa hampa sakit ka, kena paksa makan ka.. atau masa kecik ka, kena pukul sebab tak makan sayur kaa.haha..somehow hampa akan develop rasa tak suka pada makanan tersebut.

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Merujuk pada kisah aku pulak..Kita flashback balik masa ke tahun 2010 ketika aku berpraktikal di Hospital Seberang Jaya...masa tu praktikal perkhidmatan makanan. Duk dapur. Antara kerja aku adalah, uji rasa! Yeah uji rasa! Makan free! Seminggu ada la 2 3 kali aku menguji rasa. Eh wait. Kadang tiap-tiap ari pun ada! hahahaha

Tapi malang catering officer yang keja situ, yang buat resipi menu tu..suka pedas! Beliau keturunan mamak! First menu kami (dengan cosmate aku sorang) ujirasa adalah breakfast iaitu kuew tiow goreng mamak! Pedas! Banyak cabai! Makan je la kan, lapar kan, free lak tu. Pas makan pahtu gi duk dalam bilik aircond lak. Then tengahari gi makan lagi. Menu apa ntah tapi memang kuah pedas jugak arr. Seharian duk dalam aircond sampai kul 5, pahtu drive balik 40 minit pun berekon. As a result, bieber aku mengelupas. Pedih weh.. Ada la dalam seminggu dua aku tersiksa. Huhu..

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Itu kisah dulu. Bebaru ni praktikal pulak di Hospital Taiping aku demam! Yap. Baru dua hari prac dah demam! wakaka. Demam aku bermula dengan batuk yang ala-ala tak lepas. Sore throat ar. Pahtu mandi kat umah sewa dengan air yang sejuk + duk kat bilik dietitian berekon. Dapat le URTI...upper respiratory tract infection okay..jangan pikiaq pelik2 pulak..

Aku punya taakulan siapa pesalah menyebabkan aku batuk adalah makanan masa kenduri. Biasa ar cuti kenduri. Aku terpaksa ikut famili aku gi kenduri coz kalo aku tak ikut takdak makanan kat umah! Kenduri kat Penang ni lak lama2 sampai kul 4 5 kan...melepas sampai Kulim, Balik Pulau la.. (Ada gak gi Chemor, Perak ari tu tapi sampai kul 1 lauk dah kureng dah! zzzzz apa la orang Perak)

Masa kenduri macam-macam menu ekstra ada - Cendol, Laksa, Teh Tarik. (hmm baru perasan dah jadi tren banyak kenduri buat menu ni). Cendol & teh tarik no hal..tapi laksa..(laksa penang okay) aku cuba elak. Namun kenduri terakhir aku termakan...coz dah kenyang nasi. Entah macam mana, dia punya kuah tu terasa bahangnya kat tekak aku masa nak hirup kuah dia sambil makan laksa tu.

Tak pasal-pasal aku batuk...dan demam...dan MC dua hari..dan cuti 5 ari...hehehehehhehehehehehheheheheheheh

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Sebab makanan pedas ini sudah beberapa kali menyebabkan aku tak selesa so aku mula membenci mereka...Pedas sambal ja tak suka, kalo yang lada hitam i like~

List makanan yang aku tak berapa suka:
- tomyam
- segala yang bergoreng mamak
- pedas sambal arr

Tapi aku still boleh makan sebenarnya makanan pedas ni, cuma kalo boleh prefer taknak makan!

P/S: Inilah akibatnya kalo bercerita dalam blog...jadi panjang entri. Huhu. Tu yang aku malas bercerita. Haha.

P/S2: OH YEAH. HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 EVERYONE! :D

TQ. Noted by,

9:21 pm, 01/01/11

chanz