people change.

what does it mean by "people change"?

i believe,

the phrase best describes a situation in which, in a relationship, the other party, has started to treat you differently.

turned to talk differently

even if they still care the same,

the behaviours have changed.

it's not the same anymore.

they just said whatever they want,

before they wouldn't talk in such a way

they would be careful

but now..

i believe, when this does happen, both party would realize it.

the state of their relationship

what has it come to be

why does this happen?

why can't you turn back to how it was?

..it's all because..

words.

words hurt.

the other person might not say it what he/she felt,

sometimes, your hurtful words..were killing a little bit of love in their body...love cells, i might say

they died, unable to regenerate.

unless..

both of you did something to heal it again..

even if they heal..

the scars were still there.

scars couldn't heal,

they stay forever.

didn't they?

people change,

and when it happens,

nothing would be the same anymore.

selfless

what were you trying to achieve?

all these while, you have been selfless.

you didn't think about yourself

you thought that being together was what matter

you thought that the short time was enough

rather than doing anything else,

you believed it's worthwhile

just to be able to be with you

remember

you have to remember.

let's not forget

the days that you had..

with that person

all of your sweet memories

never ever, ever erase them

sometimes, you didn't ask for it to happen

all of those flashbacks 

suddenly appearing

intruding your mind

while taking your shower,

while trying to drift off to sleep,

while sitting in the mosque,

waiting for your prayer..

while driving alone,

you don't really remember everything that happened on that day

or on that particular time

what you actually do remember were..

the feelings that you had then

the emotions

how deeply you feel for the person

how much you care

how badly you want to be with them

the memories sort of flushing, flowing one by one..

into your head.

what did it mean?

why did they appear out of the blue?

why were you afraid to forget?

please,

never let those memories fade away..

never let those emotions change..

i want to remember you.

zutto

random motivational words

 

 

i was trying to write this for my facebook status...and then it felt tooo cheesy.

 

tak jadi nak post.

 

hahahaha. 

well i edited the post to be shorter.

because of you i can smile again

i was troubled

i was lonely

i had lost hope

in anyone

in anything..

i had been searching for a reason

a reason for this

blinding love

have you ever came upon yourself and realized that what have you been doing for someone..

is exactly like the saying,

love is blind

you lost your priority just because of that person

you would go such length, so far just for their sake.

you would sacrifice your time just to be by their side

you would do anything, that they would ask of you.

causal agent

how did this one person that you met able to affect your life entirely?

my life in these recent times, was all about this particular person.

heartache

KU TAK PERCAYA KITA

CINTA TAK HARUS MEMILIKI..

LALU MENGAPAAAAA

HATI TERASA SAKIT


#random

someone new

you know how do a child be able to brighten a couple's life?

because it's new.

something new.

someone.

we might have met

...i wonder.

if we might have met?

on the roads somewhere?

maybe at the mall?

oh i know. at the cafeteria?

wait wait....

at the bookstore?

maybe while lining up to pay for our groceries..

oh was that you who were wearing this peculiar black jacket with abstract design that day?

but your face never really caught my eye?

now now..was that you in the monorail..

which i had a glimpse on?

wearing a lovely red dress with your long hair

such mesmerizing eyes?

reading your books

staring at the windows..

gorgeous. 

oh have we talked to each other?

could be, momentarily?

could we have shared..

"excuse me"

"it's my pleasure"

oh yeah i know.

we might have glanced at each other.

have we smiled to each other that day?

maybe it's just common virtue


and yet..

we never knew each other

we were strangers.

no matter what had happened to us then..

it didn't matter.

because in the end,



we finally met.

it's a miracle.





i'm glad i met you, i hope you know that.

save me once again

bagai batu aku karam

makin jauh dari pandangan

semua cinta yang telah ku temui

tak bisa kembalikan aku

ku terkapar keseorangan..

jangan kau bilang ini penamatnya

resah sungguh dalam hati

ku mungkin kan sesat lagi

oh terima kasih ku ucapkan

kesabaran dan waktu

yang telah kau berikan

ku tak pernah menyangka

kau rupa-rupanya

cuba selamatkan aku

bebaskan ku dari bebayang ini

yang membejatkan bahuku

jangan pernah bilang

ini kesudahannya

belum lagi belum

ku sedar aku lemah

jiwa ini mahu lebih

dari yang ku perlukan

ku berdiri di hujung hentian

bimbang

kekosongan dalam diri

tolong jangan tinggalkan aku

ku mohon

sungguh-sungguh pada mu

terima kasih ku ucapkan

ku tak pernah menyangka

kau rupa-rupanya

cuba selamatkan aku

 

wahai kamu pemilik hati

tolonglah

would you save me once again...

- Olahan dari lagu The Rasmus -

it's 2015

..let's play this "it's 2015"

it's 2015..

..and I'm still blogging.

let go

why couldn't i let it go?

why wasn't i?

why am i still stuck on you?

why hadn't i been able to forget?

i am so tired of this

wasn't this too much for me to bear?

why couldn't i just get on with my life?

why couldn't i?

wasn't this enough already?

hadn't i been going through so much pain?

tanpa kata

mungkinkah telepati?

tiada lafaz terucap.

be with you

when you found someone you care about..

someone you like

i haet haircut

how do i get a good haircut?

i haet haricut.

you made me smile again

Dalam hidup ini, jodoh dan pertemuan bukan kita tentukan. Ada yang memberikan impak mendalam pada diri untuk sekian lama. Sukar untuk dilupakan. Ada juga yang hanya datang dan pergi dari ingatan begitu sahaja. Seiring waktu dan jarak, individu tersebut mungkin disangkakan pergi dari ingatan, hakikatnya ia masih kekal di situ. 


Oh and you, were the former.

....... 

kotoba

wasurenai.

kimi no kotoba wa.

kimi no koe wa.

karappo #2

hey you

hey you.

i am sorry.

for not replying as soon as possible.

for not having the feeling like i did then.

i don't know why i feel the need to be guilty.

but..

you were important.

back then..

you still are.

the problem is..

we're so far away.

oh how i wish you are here with me.

but no

you are not.

we're not destined to be living so close to each other.

despite how we feel about each other.

hey you.

i hope you are well over there.