Wednesday, June 13, 2018


sometimes when you commit a certain action, somehow it will remind of you something else.

the past.

flashes of it

how did you "feel" during that particular time

your "thoughts"

i was dropping off someone 


after spending time for a whole day

late at night..

me as driver

you as passenger

next to me



i wonder..

why did you look like that.

why did it seem like you're amiss


like you're leaving me there

but you shouldn't do it

like there's something you got to say

like there's something i, should have said

should have done

but didn't happen

i was..

even when we were stopping for a pray

after we're done

you're standing there

like there's something you got to say..

like you're in between

between me and someone else

which heart should you take care for?

which one should you satisfy

which one should you choose


maybe i think about it too much

maybe it didn't matter


that night was filled with mixed emotions.

things that i thought i should do, but i didnt

thank you for the good memories we had

i didnt even feel tired

cuz i had a good time, i guess.

maybe one day, i could say good bye

to this memory

to this emotion

to, you.


i am going to have it.

what you have

and i, wont have to think about you anymore

not anymore


thank you, aniki.

Thursday, February 2, 2017

i want to be happy.

of everything..

i am glad of what i have now.

since then,

i've been blessed.

syukur alhamdulillah.

i'm still learning..over time and time.

how do i deal with this kind of thing.

how do i deal with this "happiness"

how do i act each time i won't get it.

whatever it is that i wanted.

things like this...been repeating.

ever since then.

same kind of thing, different setting, different people.

do i blame the hormones?

for making me happy?

for making me depressed later on?

in time,

i'll learn.

that the people that i met,

they're all worth it.


moga kita tetap bertemu dan bersama di syurga sana.

Monday, August 29, 2016



you felt happiness.

you found reasons.


Tuesday, June 14, 2016

Sunday, March 13, 2016

after you

i always wonder..

each time i came

each time i went there

what did you think about?

how did you feel?

are you happy?

are you excited?

Sunday, March 6, 2016

one or three

what's worse..

being number one or three?


you are alone.

in a race, in a competition, you may have won, but you are, alone.

your rivals despised you

did runner-up and second runner-up truly shake your hands as an act of honor?

salute you?

despite how professional they are,

they might have felt it,

i hated you. 

hated your guts.


wishlist: Snorlax

i don't care, i want this.


yess dah ada target in life