Thursday, February 2, 2017

i want to be happy.

of everything..

i am glad of what i have now.

since then,

i've been blessed.

syukur alhamdulillah.

i'm still learning..over time and time.

how do i deal with this kind of thing.

how do i deal with this "happiness"

how do i act each time i won't get it.

whatever it is that i wanted.

things like this...been repeating.

ever since then.

same kind of thing, different setting, different people.

do i blame the hormones?

for making me happy?

for making me depressed later on?

in time,

i'll learn.

that the people that i met,

they're all worth it.


moga kita tetap bertemu dan bersama di syurga sana.

Monday, August 29, 2016



you felt happiness.

you found reasons.


Tuesday, June 14, 2016

Sunday, June 5, 2016

i ruined everything.

note: tl;dr

don't waste your time reading this.

come to think of it,

i am a failure.

i destroyed everything.

i ruined everything.

oh, why?

why didn't i learn? 

Sunday, March 13, 2016

after you

i always wonder..

each time i came

each time i went there

what did you think about?

how did you feel?

are you happy?

are you excited?

Sunday, March 6, 2016

one or three

what's worse..

being number one or three?


you are alone.

in a race, in a competition, you may have won, but you are, alone.

your rivals despised you

did runner-up and second runner-up truly shake your hands as an act of honor?

salute you?

despite how professional they are,

they might have felt it,

i hated you. 

hated your guts.


wishlist: Snorlax

i don't care, i want this.


yess dah ada target in life