Wednesday, June 13, 2018
sometimes when you commit a certain action, somehow it will remind of you something else.
flashes of it
how did you "feel" during that particular time
i was dropping off someone
after spending time for a whole day
late at night..
me as driver
you as passenger
next to me
why did you look like that.
why did it seem like you're amiss
like you're leaving me there
but you shouldn't do it
like there's something you got to say
like there's something i, should have said
should have done
but didn't happen
even when we were stopping for a pray
after we're done
you're standing there
like there's something you got to say..
like you're in between
between me and someone else
which heart should you take care for?
which one should you satisfy
which one should you choose
maybe i think about it too much
maybe it didn't matter
that night was filled with mixed emotions.
things that i thought i should do, but i didnt
thank you for the good memories we had
i didnt even feel tired
cuz i had a good time, i guess.
maybe one day, i could say good bye
to this memory
to this emotion
i am going to have it.
what you have
and i, wont have to think about you anymore
thank you, aniki.
Thursday, February 2, 2017
i am glad of what i have now.
i've been blessed.
i'm still learning..over time and time.
how do i deal with this kind of thing.
how do i deal with this "happiness"
how do i act each time i won't get it.
whatever it is that i wanted.
things like this...been repeating.
ever since then.
same kind of thing, different setting, different people.
do i blame the hormones?
for making me happy?
for making me depressed later on?
that the people that i met,
they're all worth it.
moga kita tetap bertemu dan bersama di syurga sana.
Monday, August 29, 2016
Tuesday, June 14, 2016
Sunday, March 13, 2016
Sunday, March 6, 2016
being number one or three?
you are alone.
in a race, in a competition, you may have won, but you are, alone.
your rivals despised you
did runner-up and second runner-up truly shake your hands as an act of honor?
despite how professional they are,
they might have felt it,
i hated you.
hated your guts.