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Tuesday, December 30, 2014

i remember / oboeteimasu #1


while you were driving..

while you were bathing..

while you were waiting..

while you were just sitting doing nothing.

did you ever have a sudden recollection of your pasts?

like, suddenly you remembered about this certain incident you had during your childhood..

a reminiscence.

..

Saturday, December 27, 2014

things that stop you dreaming


well if you can’t get what you love
you learn to love the things you’ve got

if you can’t be what you want
you learn to be the things you’re not

if you can’t get what you need
you learn to need the things that stop you dreaming

all the things that stop you dreaming

you made me smile again


Dalam hidup ini, jodoh dan pertemuan bukan kita tentukan. Ada yang memberikan impak mendalam pada diri untuk sekian lama. Sukar untuk dilupakan. Ada juga yang hanya datang dan pergi dari ingatan begitu sahaja. Seiring waktu dan jarak, individu tersebut mungkin disangkakan pergi dari ingatan, hakikatnya ia masih kekal di situ. 


Oh and you, were the former.

....... 

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

pasti sempurna


Ada waktu kita pernah bersama
Pelangi indah kita kecapi
 
Jauh ku di sini kini
mendoakan dikau bahagia

Yakini dirimu 
pasti sempurna

Harapan semoga dirimu 
dilindungi sinar rahmat bahagia
Jalanmu lurus dan kekal berjaya,
diredhai Yang Maha Esa

Walau dalam sukar
dan diri ini diperlukan
namun ku tiada

Doa dan harapan,
hanya mampu ku utus

Ku sematkan azimat kenangan
menemani jiwa yang kehilangan
menghapus segala resah
mendorong di kala hiba

Teguhlah jiwamu
Buat selama-lamanya


pertama kali dengar lagu ni aku dah boleh relate. sungguh, sungguh.

lirik ada improvise sedikit.

actually, lagu hyper act banyak boleh relate. memang pandai betul dia buat lagu. huuuu

Monday, December 8, 2014

Monday, November 17, 2014

chanz's running: records so far (updated)


i've been running a lot lately. be it for events, for training.

this post is intended for me to keep track of my records so far.

have i improved? or not?

:)

i'm not sure i remember all of them, or whether i have the records or not..hurm..

Friday, November 7, 2014

hey you


hey you.

i am sorry.

for not replying as soon as possible.

for not having the feeling like i did then.

i don't know why i feel the need to be guilty.

but..

you were important.

back then..

you still are.

the problem is..

we're so far away.

oh how i wish you are here with me.

but no

you are not.

we're not destined to be living so close to each other.

despite how we feel about each other.

hey you.

i hope you are well over there.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Friday, October 3, 2014

connection


even though we have been separated for some time..

it's been so long

long time ago.

each time we meet again, the feeling is still there.

the connection that we felt back then.

remains.

Friday, September 26, 2014

termimpi


satu ketika itu
kau dan aku
indah.

semalam aku termimpi
kisah baru tentang kita

ku lihat engkau
bukan seperti biasa

ku tunggu
engkau hampiri ku

ku seru namamu
tiada sahutan
tiada peduli

cuma tiada

ku tertanya
kenapa
adakah kisah kita telah luput

hilang dari ingatanmu
hilang erti
hilang segala

akhirnya dia khabarkan
engkau bukan engkau

terbangkit dari lena
hanya untuk menyedari
akan hakikat

kita tidak lagi bersama.

Thursday, September 18, 2014

outsider


when you finally realize you are just an outsider..

what do you do?

Sunday, September 14, 2014

moments


saat kita bersama tidak selamanya.

masa kan berlalu.

ke depan.

takkan diundur.

betapa aku mahu waktu terhenti

frozen

agar saat indah itu selamanya begini.

berulang-ulang.

pusing dan pusing semula.

kekal.

kau dan aku.

bersama.

our beautiful moments.

why can't it stay forever.

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

shin splint and running


apa itu shin splint?


ha senang cerita tulang tibia kat kawasan shin muscle tu overstressed....huhu common runner's injury.

last marathon, seremban marathon, aku ada masalah ini.

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

congratulations.


to whom it may concern,

omedetou.

happy for you.

shiawase ni naru yo.

uh huh. i remember i congratulated someone on the same day. but for a different achievement.

after i cheered him for his achievement, then i wonder, when will i be like him?

need to train my muscle strength if i ever want to win a race.

oh also about this other thing.

the next step.

hmmmm.

my dad said, don't think about it too much. it'll come to you when it's time. right. :)

Sunday, August 10, 2014

i'm not yours


you can't expect people to be always with you.

not unless you're married.

even so, love doesn't own.

each individual is free.

of their own will.

you can't push people to be of your favor.

don't expect people to be following whatever you need, you ask, you want.

each person have their own desires, wants and needs.

they are not always the same with you.

naturally, people should love themselves more than anything else.

appreciate your own self.

don't be reliable on others.

don't blindly follow others.

you may put others before yourself, but learn to love yourself as well.

loving yourself doesn't necessarily mean selfishness.

there are time for everything.

keep yourself at your own will.

be of your own judgment.

your own decision.

be yourself.

it's your life.

not them.


Saturday, August 2, 2014

consume


You don't remember me but I remember you
I lie awake
And I try so hard not to think of you

Have you forgotten all I know and all we had?
You saw me mourning my love for you and touched my hand
I knew you loved me then

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you 
to live 
to breathe


You're taking over me.

Monday, July 21, 2014

i want to know


You're alone in the rain

I've been thinking of you


You can't stop your tears


When you stayed with me just before


I want to know


Do you love me
?

Thursday, July 10, 2014

you're always in my head




I think of you
I haven't slept
I think I do

But I don't forget
My body moves
Goes where I will
But though I try my heart stays still
It never moves
Just won't be left

So my mouth waters, to be fed
And you're always in my head

You're always in my head
You're always in my head
You're always in my head

You're always in my head
Always in my...
You're always in my...

This, I guess, is to tell you you're chosen out from the rest...


always. zutto.

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

antara menulis dengan emosi dan random


i learned something about myself.

i feel like, whenever i wrote something, while having emotions, especially when i was having a good time or feeling something, i believe my writing skill was it in a better way.

for example, when i'm in love. when i'm sad. when i miss you. when i...

when it deals with romance. and love.

or even when i'm mad.

whenever i'm full of emotions, the way i'm writing is different.

comparing to, i'm writing randomly, it's just...

something doesn't feel right.

something is left out.

not correct.

i should have taken "creative writing" back then.....not "spoken english"!! huhuhuuuuuu

maa ikka.

Monday, June 9, 2014

dua kali 21K dalam seminggu


24/05 hari tu aku lari Firefighter Cyberjaya Marathon. 21K.

01/06 lak lari Penang Run kat Butterworth. 21K gak.

hoho.

hebat tak.

Penang Run aku improve. lari 3km, berenti solat subuh sat...then sambung lari sampai 18km...!! hoho.
 
gatai pi berenti, lutut kiri aku sakit da.

the pain.....

memang yang amat lah.

jalan kaki ja sampai habis..

kalau tak mesti pecah rekod gila2 (own record) kalau aku continue je lari..lagi 3km je woi!

yang cyberjaya hari tu, memula lari dah injured. rasa lari 3km gak..then aku jalan..pahtu tetiba bila start lari rasa okay. laju lak tu punya pace, speed aku, leh aku maintain sampai 12 km. dari 3km..hoho.. siap potong kawan aku balik.

sebab apa ek?

sebab form. my stance. sebab aku lari dengan form yang betul. tegakkan badan dengan betul.

cuma...mungkin cara kaki berlari tu je kena improve. dan my lutut! huhuuu...

cyberjaya

penang run spu

next run is trail run...18K...!! 22 Jun lak.

aku suka trail run. tapi kasut Karrimor beli hari tu mengecewakan....haish nak pakai kasut pa neh?

Monday, May 5, 2014

random grey's anatomy


my favorite pair at the moment..



april x jackson.

and they're fighting.

again.

though it'a heavy issue they brought out this time.

argument about beliefs.

faiths.

how could a couple with different views on such crucial matter in life, will ever coexist?

how?

christian x atheist?

religion vs science?

good one greys (or accurately, shonda rhimes) you did it again.

Saturday, May 3, 2014

running log #1


i was going slow today.

didn't run. i was trying to jog only. see how far can i go..with this pace.

my legs can go. my lungs can go. my head can go.

only....

my body. felt like having no energy at all.

perhaps i need to do carb loading before i run?



dapat tahu trek lari tu usm bukak je hujung minggu....weekdays jek kot kena tulis nama...

btw, ada accident kat depan usm tadi. myvi dengan wira, kot.

apalah. laju2 lagi.

Wednesday, April 30, 2014

plain orenji!


haha!

i finally....bought a car.

atarashii kuruma desu yo~

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

logged #1

last night i dreamt. you were there. next to me. like we were back then. it felt good. for a moment. then i said to myself. this is too good to be true. no, this can't be. finally i realized that it was just a dream. i think i was half-awoken. and in that moment, i knew. i knew for sure that this is just a dream. you are not, with me. the end.

anyway. i've decided to write log diary every bits and then. or a journal. whatever it is called. maybe twice a month? too lazy to write on a book these days, so blog it is!

like anybody's been reading this blog anyway.
.........................................................................
morning.

Sunday, April 27, 2014

what the hell have i been doing these past few years?


..

i can't keep being like this.

it's time for a change.

it's time for a plan.

things that you can't have, they are for a reason.

..

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

i'm going to run and fly, itsumo


looks like i'm getting further in this world of marathon.

and i keep improving days by days.

running taught me about myself.

learning.

finding.

what am i supposed to be.

how strong can i be.

how weak-willed i was.

i am able to find myself in running.

anyway, these upcoming month(s) are going to be packed! 

....

let's run. and fly. :)


PAIN IS INEVITABLE SUFFERING IS OPTIONAL.

Sunday, April 20, 2014

because i was alone


because.

just because.

i was alone.

i seem lonely.

i was independent.

i always managed by my own.

i was comfortable that way.

yet,

you..

you came.

you thought i needed someone.

you accompanied me.

for a moment there, i saw you as a nuisance.

nevertheless, you were always there.

your smile.

you were close to me.

like nobody else were.

you've saved me.

i wonder, why me?

could be..

you were alone too?


Tuesday, April 1, 2014

usah peduli


usah peduli apa mereka buat. apa mereka rasa. apa mereka fikir. apa mereka kata. mereka tidak tahu. mereka adalah mereka. apabila ringgit nilaian motivasi mereka, ilmu dijual beli. dunia materialistik begini ajarannya. ikhlas ke mana. apa ke mana. perkongsian ilmu bukan lagi amalan. generalisasi adalah punca. racun pula pada generasi seterusnya. kurang pengetahuan. kurang pengajaran. kurang segala-gala. dan dikatanya mereka bodoh. mereka lemah. apakan daya, kamu yang lebih tahu kurang memberitahu. sistem birokrasi merosakkan lagi. bobrok. ini hakikat. hakikat dunia. dunia kejaran manusia. yang entah, untuk ke mana. apa yang pasti, kau bukan aku. 

ingat pada Yang Satu, itu sudah cukup bagiku. 

Cukup bagiku Allah.

Monday, March 31, 2014

people and their craps


i've said before.

i'm not ready. 

nor i've the experience to deal with these craps and bullshits that people deliver.

Saturday, March 15, 2014

Ini spam: 0133126143






Sapa pernah dapat mesej dari nombor ni? Konon mesej islamik. Tetiba dia potong kredit. Cam haram. Haram wey ko buat tu. Bayangkan kalau berpuluh-puluh ribu dia hantar..then tolak kredit. Berapa dah dia dapat setiap hari? Sial kan "company" ni? Aku percaya ni kerja a certain company..

Aku ingat dah kurang mesej2 spam ni dalam henset..setakat emel je ada spam..tak sangka lak sms pun banyak spam.

Ramai dah kena dengan nombor ni. check here

Aku try cadangan celcom tu, stopmms tapi cam takde apa pun. Selalunya when we try to send STOP message, dia akan reply something like, "ARE YOU SURE?" camtu kan..

Setakat ni, measure yang aku ambil to solve problem ni adalah dengan install app... SMS Spam Blocker. Taktau la MMS dia filter ke tak. Baru nak try. Memula pakai Blacklist Pro tapi dia dok ada notification pulak kat screen.

MMS dah tak relevan la sekarang. Bongok je. Even back then sebelum dunia smartphone, people don't really use MMS YOU PRICKS!


Sesapa ada idea lain?

Monday, March 10, 2014

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

flylikesanji #5: learn from the senior



Ng Keng Hoong: The marathon man

Life need not slow down to a snail’s pace for seniors. Ng Keng Hoong started running after his retirement and he hasn’t stopped since.
RETIREE Ng Keng Hoong, 69, has survived a heart attack and undergone angioplasty but he refuses to let any health scares stop him from running marathons. Even hurtful words can’t break his spirit.
Known as Uncle Sonny in his running fraternity, Ng has no plans to hang up his running shoes.
Running has turned into a passion and I will run marathons as long as my body is able to,” says Ng, who resides in Petaling Jaya, Selangor.
Ng picked up running together with his wife back in 2000. Both of them were new retirees then.
When Ng retired, his peers recommended activities such as line-dancing, mahjong and karaoke sessions, card games, and day-trips and excursions.
But Ng says such things aren’t their cup of tea. “We belong to the outdoors and my wife loves sleeping under the stars!”
Ng ran his first marathon, the Penang International Bridge Run, in June 2001, after training for six months.
A year later, he ran his second Penang Marathon. In August the same year, Ng participated in the Seremban Half Marathon before he had a minor heart attack. After the run and photo shoot, Ng was walking back to his car when he had a blackout for a few seconds. When he came around, he felt lethargic, rested a while, and went to see a general practitioner who suggested that he checked into a hospital.
Ng was taken to a hospital in Seremban and kept overnight for observation. The next day, he was transferred to a medical centre in Petaling Jaya.
He recalls: “The cardiologist did an angiogram and found that two of my main arteries were blocked. He recommended angioplasty, and advised me to lay off running for two months.”
Ng took part in his next full marathon in 2005. As a heart patient, Ng sees his cardiologist once every eight months.
When Ng registers for a marathon, he will follow an 18-week training programme. In fact, in March he started training for this year’s Standard Chartered KL Marathon.
“I’m active every day of the week. On Mondays, Thursdays and Saturdays, I will be hiking in Gasing Hill. On Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Fridays, I will be running between 8km and 15km. I reserve Sundays for long runs of a minimum of 20km,” says Ng.
When he first started running in marathons, Ng used to get aches and pains after each run.
“Now the aches and pains are history. After a long run (of 30km), I feel a bit tired but after a few hours’ sleep, I’ll be fine,” Ng shares.
The seasoned runner who gets all fired up after a marathon is living proof that life need not slow down with age.

extracted from thestar, article on June 12, 2013


dude he's 69! what are you doing sitting at home? do you love your big tummy so much??? and wonder when will it grow bigger?? lol

he's really an experienced runner.. i haven't been able to run a minimum of 20km each Sunday....shiet crazy


i will run till i develop the ability to fly like sanji!! ahhahahaa

Thursday, February 27, 2014

flylikesanji #4: 10K ICE Charity Run @ KL


my first marathon this year.

and i broke my record!

personal record... boleh laa~


average pace 6:38 min/km.... an improvement for me.

bp/mthon: caucasian grandpa


Masa aku otw dari LCCT ke stesen KTM Nilai hari tu....naik bas Airport Liner..aku terperasan seorang datuk (nota: grandpa) berbangsa Caucasian ni. agaknya berumur sekitar 70an. Mungkin 80.

Saturday, February 22, 2014

backpack/marathon: prologue


agak-agak kamu la, aku ni orang yang macam mana?

aku suka duduk rumah ja.

bukan tak suka berjalan, mendokusai semua tu bagi aku.

i can have fun at home too.

i can be so addicted to games. and there are books to read. shows/anime to watch.

I, WAS, like that.

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Thursday, February 6, 2014

short term memory loss?


bebaru ni aku keep forgetting stuff.

nak recall balik rasa susah sangat.

benda baru jadi semalam je pon. tapi kenapa dalam otak cam takdak benda tu??

cuba nak ingat, ingat tapi tak kuar.

stress tak cukup tidur agaknya.

kepala sakit ar.

tiap kali bangun kepala masih rasa tak puas tidur. rasa sakit lagi.

haih.

tido awal.

malam.


Sunday, February 2, 2014

dietitian #1


ramai student lepasan matrik, asasi atau diploma yang terserempak dengan blog aku sebenarnya.. sebab entri dietetik? aku tu.

tapi aku rasa sekarang semakin ramai student dietetik.. yang punya blog. dan suka menulis tanpa selindung apa. they can read the other blogs that talk more about it.

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Irama Berputar


Kaki melangkah.

Henti.

Jejak putus.

Hapus. Sunyi. Hayati.

Runut turuti.

Bayu melambai.

Dahan menari.

Terbang dedaun.

Pusar.

Kicauan si burung.

Cengkerik mencelah.

Indah.

Damai.

Sungguh.

Hijau itu milik kita.

Andai insan mengerti.

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

cyber vs irl friends.


dalam dunia tanpa sempadan sekarang ini...

the way to interact, socialize is unlimited. not limited to people you've met at schools, university, workplace, neighborhood.

there's internet.

glad i found internet.

Sunday, January 5, 2014

kisah kereta kancil #2


Ni kali kedua Kancil aku cedera. Ya, cedera.

Hari tu pasal clutch cable.

Kali ni...erm. Rasanya common issue la. Masalah bateri.