Friday, February 26, 2016
what were you trying to achieve?
all these while, you have been selfless.
you didn't think about yourself
you thought that being together was what matter
you thought that the short time was enough
rather than doing anything else,
you believed it's worthwhile
just to be able to be with you
you traveled so far
you spent time
what were you trying to gain from it?
were you satisfied?
even when you're together,
you couldn't even actually be together
you're still alone
on that piece of furniture, king
you lied there by yourself, comfortably
you saw the dim light outside
you realized what you were
you said to yourself,
no it's not
you shouldn't keep be doing this
you have to stop
they're holding hands
they walked side by side
now where were you?
you, were, alone
you are three
that's what you are, always
always being the third, of all
the truth is,
all this time, you were only hiding your pain
you were only ignoring it
fight or flight
you rather escape, get away than dealing with it
is it for naught?
will i be able to have what you have?
sometimes, i felt tired
of doing this
of not thinking about myself
of having to see you and say good bye
i wish i never met you.
end note: writing is my therapy. felt so much better when you could pour it all out. you can interpret my writings in any way you want, but it's not what you think.