the loner, i am

i am an introvert.

introverts, usually are not interested in talking.

or social interaction.

doesn't mean they couldn't talk

they would talk endlessly if it's involving interesting matter, for them.

because they tend to not talk,

they tend to be in reclusive manner.

people might perceive them as arrogant, shy, unfriendly, and anti-social

that's just how they are, we are, i am.

kind of pathetic.

what they don't know though,

we're like that because you, you and you are not worth their time.

you talk shit about silly things

all i want

all i want is..

..to be able do the things i love with the person i love

let's run together

would you like to be my pacer?

it's okay if you're slower

it's okay if you're a 10K

heck i can manage 3K

if it's you.

can you do that?

let's have a nature getaway

i don't know;

we might do trail run

why don't we trek the jungle?

oh if we have the time, we can hike the hills, or better yet, the mountain

let's camp somewhere with a view

that kind of view

you know, that.

awesome.

if we have money, let's plan a trip

just the two of us

someplace that we would be able to forget

all the care in the world

relieve us from all of the burdens

learning one or two things along the way

which country should we go first?

Japan!!

i call dibs on that. haha!

it's a known fact that i'm such a weeabo

if i'm going to master Japanese,

would you support me through it?

would you not make fun of me?

when there's nothing to do at the weekend,

you would remind me about the movies that i've been wanting to watch that i've forgotten about

we would watch it together

because, well, you're also enjoying it

the way i would

i know you would

hey, let's talk less.

let's read a book

it's okay if we like a different genre

it's okay if our favorite authors have weird names

it's okay if i would never comprehend your taste

let's just sit and lie

lean on each other

quiet

just read..

in our own library

if we're bored of the things we do

if we've run out of ideas of doing anything

if we're too busy with our work

it's okay

why don't we just walk

maybe at the mall

maybe at the park

maybe along the lake

holding hands

just you and me

walking and doing nothing..

what about kids you ask?

to be honest,

i haven't thought much about that matter

i love kids

i am good with them

kids love me

i believe, when you have kids, everything's going to change

priority might not be the same

sacrifice is a must

they'll be the jewels of our heart

one thing you should know

i am bad at expressing

words

emotions

if you find me at loss of words

please be smart about it

and read my mind

be my telepathy

if someday we feel like we're bored of each other

you would remind me of all the good times

i would remind you of the funniest times

silliest things you did

i did

we did

together

we would grow old together..

where do you want to spend your old days?

our retirement

would you want to know where i want to be?

that's a privilege information

i'll only disclose to you

if we've truly made up our mind

about us

all i can say is,

i've spent half of my year there

i love the place

it suits my ideal of living

let's be old there

but then,

we have to remember

we have obligation

responsibility

would you be there during my highs and lows?

no, the question is..

would i be there as well?

would we be able to support each other?

through hard days

through silly fights

would we be able to bear it all?

would the two of us..

..be strong?

.....these things that you, i and everyone want..

why can't they ever be real?

why do these only stay in the imaginary mind?

well,

because..

you can't always get what you want.

p/s: to you; which existence is yet to be known.

you just knew.

do you believe that when you first meet someone, if you have connection with that person, you just knew?

when your eyes first meet each other..

you just knew something's going to happen between both of you.

that, you are going to get close.

that, you and her/him are going to be more than this.

you have the feeling of curiosity

so curious.

you would want to know more about them

more, and more.

because, to you, at the time, she/he is the most interesting person to you.

all sort of emotions were flushing through your mind

overwhelming

there's something - a thread, is connecting, binding you and them

it is out of your control

all the events that's been happening, it will only lead to you and them.

strengthening the bond

it has been written on the walls

for both of you.

over time, suddenly you realize you are so in love

you found out that you just want to be by their side more than anything

you care about them more than anything

you just..knew.

this is what we are supposed to be.

together.

..and when it's the time,

separation.

you hate it.

as is that person.

it is a mutual emotion.

if you were feeling all of those..

remember.

keep them in your heart.

please treat them with love.

always.






because you two are meant for each other.

:)

remember

you have to remember.

let's not forget

the days that you had..

with that person

all of your sweet memories

never ever, ever erase them

sometimes, you didn't ask for it to happen

all of those flashbacks 

suddenly appearing

intruding your mind

while taking your shower,

while trying to drift off to sleep,

while sitting in the mosque,

waiting for your prayer..

while driving alone,

you don't really remember everything that happened on that day

or on that particular time

what you actually do remember were..

the feelings that you had then

the emotions

how deeply you feel for the person

how much you care

how badly you want to be with them

the memories sort of flushing, flowing one by one..

into your head.

what did it mean?

why did they appear out of the blue?

why were you afraid to forget?

please,

never let those memories fade away..

never let those emotions change..

i want to remember you.

zutto

random motivational words

 

 

i was trying to write this for my facebook status...and then it felt tooo cheesy.

 

tak jadi nak post.

 

hahahaha. 

well i edited the post to be shorter.

because of you i can smile again

i was troubled

i was lonely

i had lost hope

in anyone

in anything..

i had been searching for a reason

a reason for this

chanz's review: Yowamushi Pedal

Now it's time for me to resume my anime series that I have left a looong time ago.

One of them is Yowamushi Pedal.

From the pedal, you might have already guessed, it's about bicycle.

Bicycle road racing.