i remember / oboeteimasu #1

while you were driving..

while you were bathing..

while you were waiting..

while you were just sitting doing nothing.

did you ever have a sudden recollection of your pasts?

like, suddenly you remembered about this certain incident you had during your childhood..

a reminiscence.

..

consume

You don't remember me but I remember you

I lie awake

And I try so hard not to think of you

Have you forgotten all I know and all we had?

You saw me mourning my love for you and touched my hand

I knew you loved me then

I believe in you

I'll give up everything just to find you

I have to be with you 

to live 

to breathe

You're taking over me.

tfsoc - who are you again?

today, before dusk, i wandered at the park. aimlessly, the one near the river. and alone. actually, i planned to do some jogging. but when i arrived at the park, the mood was gone. i don't know, suddenly i didn't feel like i wanted to jog. so, i took a walk. observing people. oh i love observing people.

there's a group of Chinese women, i believe they are in their 50s, doing some weird dance. with the radio playing some Chinese folk music. and they danced within the rhythm! wow that's nice. i looked at them for a while..and i came into conclusion that it is not a taichi! it's just a weird dance. or exercise. at least they were doing something healthy at their age.


if i know how to do that dance, i may have joined them...err

RECAP: chanz in 2011

Blog is a diary right? So aku nak recap sikit sebanyak pasal kisah hidup aku tahun 2011 yang takde la spesel mana, sama ja macam korang.

tfsoc #4 - the hakims; prologue to alternate universe

tfsoc - the fictional story of chanz

this is tl;dr post. don't read it please. seriously, you get bored.

So..I can't sleep. And these came to mind.

Fourteen Years Old

If time travel ever possible, I want to go back to the fourteen years old me.

Ano toki wa.. #2 - Aku, SKPTM dan Zaman Kanak-Kanak

Okay ar. Join contest. Hadiah dari New Zealand tuhh. Cambez. Misteri misteri.

Tagged by Mus, Contest by NurusSalwa.

Syarat contest:

1) Letak header blogger tu:

2) Link kan ke blognya:

http://pendambarahmat.blogspot.com/2011/04/kontest-kenangan-zaman-sekolah.html

3) Ceritakan tentang kenangan zaman sekolah.

4) Tag 2 orang at least.

5) Tinggalkan link kat blog si pembuat contest.

Orait, here you go.

Lepas baca entri Mus, terus rasa nak tulis Malay. haha. Here I am.

Taktau la citer aku menarik ke tak. Banyak sangat citer zaman sekolah ni eh. huu

Trivia:
1) Nama sekolah: Sek Keb Permatang Tok Mahat aka SKPTM
2) Rumah aku depan sekolah masa darjah 5-6. Anak cikgu la kan. Tiap kali rehat balik makan kat rumah. Nak ponteng kelas tak boleh kantoi cikgu datang rumah. zzz
3) Nama kelas aku dari Darjah 1-6: Biru Biru Biru Merah Merah Merah. haa best tak?

Ha ni la kenangan zaman sekolah aku! Tak cukup menarik ke info atas tu. :P

wawaaa kasi penampar sikit budak ni?

Ano toki wa.. #1 - First & Second Week in USMKK

This entry is about my perception back then. In my first and second week in USMKK. How I felt about it. How I thought it's going to be. And about these guys I met, during my first and second week here.

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I never came to Kelantan. I got no relatives here. I was alone. No friends from matric/school either.

Back then, the first person I ever met on my first day here was Ajon. We met already during UTP Educamp just 2-3 weeks before. We were in the same group. I hardly remembered him lawl. He remembered me as "naughty boy". The label I got from the lecturer in our group. Don't ask me why. There was a session during the educamp we had to tell about our "success stories" other than academics. Ajon talked about soccer. That I remembered. Me? I talked about nasyid. How is that for a naughty boy? gaga

Even Now I Still Think I Should Have Taken Engin

The worst thing happen when you are sitting alone in a room, suddenly out of blue you will have a reminiscence of your life, regretting your actions and decisions.

You keep asking yourself WHY and WHY did you do this.. Why did you choose to do that??

Recalling when I was a form 5 student, I've decided! I should have done Engin! And....in Japan! :P Well, my target actually is to go to Japan studying, and just to happen that JPA/MARA only offers engin course in Japan..

Let's palmface.

Pic credited to manga Ikigami.

I NEVER THOUGHT THAT I AM GOING TO DO DIETETICS COURSE.

If I was to blame my dad, no, he's not totally at fault. He did however encourage me to take food related course. When I said I want to be an engineer, he.. erm, "against it" is not the appropriate word..erm..he just being a DAD lah. He worried too much. He heard stories from his friends and took examples from their unsuccessful and jobless engineering-graduated kids, and he, I don't know, he just being unsupportive. Only seeing the negative sides of it. Only my brother supported me that time, but I never listen to him because..I never like him. When my father said to do a food-related course, (reasons that this industry is growing & people keep talking about food nowadays, thus food is important) 

I followed his suggestion. 

Plus (to make things worse), in the family, I am the most obedient child other than my eldest sister. My dad said so himself. These are his words,

"Yang selalu dengaq kata abang akim dengan kakak ja. Sebab tu gigi depa elok masa kecik-kecik, tak rongak. Dekyam, abang Asan hang gigi takdak, sebab tak dengaq kata!"

Okay, he always using these words to my headstrong little sister who is still in school because..well, she is a teenager! What can we expect?

(She is your typical teenager who idolizes the national hiburan industry too much)

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Back to the topic.

It is actually a decision of a last minute. I've heard of this course during a uni exhibition in the matric. It seems interesting when the person explaining it. So I put it in the third choice. After we got the matric results, we need to fill the UPU for the second time. THIS IS THE TIME WHEN I CHANGED MY CHOICE. I might say that it is a spontaneous action. I change it at the last minute. From third choice, it went to the first choice. I don't know. I don't know why. I don't know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's all.

P/S: Wait, maybe because I decide things based on intuition? Perhaps..the explaination from this web says it all..
P/S2: dindiet agrees about me being a INTP.
P/S3: To darkartz, yeah I know, think positive right! :|
P/S4: Does this entry emo? No, right? Just stating the facts..No profanity languages here..

Noted by,

10:22pm, 22/02/11

chanz