Wednesday, November 25, 2015
all i want
all i want is..
..to be able do the things i love with the person i love
let's run together
would you like to be my pacer?
it's okay if you're slower
it's okay if you're a 10K
heck i can manage 3K
if it's you.
can you do that?
let's have a nature getaway
i don't know;
we might do trail run
why don't we trek the jungle?
oh if we have the time, we can hike the hills, or better yet, the mountain
let's camp somewhere with a view
that kind of view
you know, that.
awesome.
if we have money, let's plan a trip
just the two of us
someplace that we would be able to forget
all the care in the world
relieve us from all of the burdens
learning one or two things along the way
which country should we go first?
Japan!!
i call dibs on that. haha!
it's a known fact that i'm such a weeabo
if i'm going to master Japanese,
would you support me through it?
would you not make fun of me?
when there's nothing to do at the weekend,
you would remind me about the movies that i've been wanting to watch that i've forgotten about
we would watch it together
because, well, you're also enjoying it
the way i would
i know you would
hey, let's talk less.
let's read a book
it's okay if we like a different genre
it's okay if our favorite authors have weird names
it's okay if i would never comprehend your taste
let's just sit and lie
lean on each other
quiet
just read..
in our own library
if we're bored of the things we do
if we've run out of ideas of doing anything
if we're too busy with our work
it's okay
why don't we just walk
maybe at the mall
maybe at the park
maybe along the lake
holding hands
just you and me
walking and doing nothing..
what about kids you ask?
to be honest,
i haven't thought much about that matter
i love kids
i am good with them
kids love me
i believe, when you have kids, everything's going to change
priority might not be the same
sacrifice is a must
they'll be the jewels of our heart
one thing you should know
i am bad at expressing
words
emotions
if you find me at loss of words
please be smart about it
and read my mind
be my telepathy
if someday we feel like we're bored of each other
you would remind me of all the good times
i would remind you of the funniest times
silliest things you did
i did
we did
together
we would grow old together..
where do you want to spend your old days?
our retirement
would you want to know where i want to be?
that's a privilege information
i'll only disclose to you
if we've truly made up our mind
about us
all i can say is,
i've spent half of my year there
i love the place
it suits my ideal of living
let's be old there
but then,
we have to remember
we have obligation
responsibility
would you be there during my highs and lows?
no, the question is..
would i be there as well?
would we be able to support each other?
through hard days
through silly fights
would we be able to bear it all?
would the two of us..
..be strong?
.....these things that you, i and everyone want..
why can't they ever be real?
why do these only stay in the imaginary mind?
well,
because..
you can't always get what you want.
p/s: to you; which existence is yet to be known.
Saturday, November 14, 2015
you just knew.
do you believe that when you first meet someone, if you have connection with that person, you just knew?
when your eyes first meet each other..
you just knew something's going to happen between both of you.
that, you are going to get close.
that, you and her/him are going to be more than this.
you have the feeling of curiosity
so curious.
you would want to know more about them
more, and more.
because, to you, at the time, she/he is the most interesting person to you.
all sort of emotions were flushing through your mind
overwhelming
there's something - a thread, is connecting, binding you and them
it is out of your control
all the events that's been happening, it will only lead to you and them.
strengthening the bond
it has been written on the walls
for both of you.
over time, suddenly you realize you are so in love
you found out that you just want to be by their side more than anything
you care about them more than anything
you just..knew.
this is what we are supposed to be.
together.
..and when it's the time,
separation.
you hate it.
as is that person.
it is a mutual emotion.
if you were feeling all of those..
remember.
keep them in your heart.
please treat them with love.
always.
because you two are meant for each other.
:)
Sunday, October 11, 2015
remember
you have to remember.
let's not forget
the days that you had..
with that person
all of your sweet memories
never ever, ever erase them
sometimes, you didn't ask for it to happen
all of those flashbacks
suddenly appearing
intruding your mind
while taking your shower,
while trying to drift off to sleep,
while sitting in the mosque,
waiting for your prayer..
while driving alone,
you don't really remember everything that happened on that day
or on that particular time
what you actually do remember were..
the feelings that you had then
the emotions
how deeply you feel for the person
how much you care
how badly you want to be with them
the memories sort of flushing, flowing one by one..
into your head.
what did it mean?
why did they appear out of the blue?
why were you afraid to forget?
please,
never let those memories fade away..
never let those emotions change..
i want to remember you.
zutto
Thursday, September 10, 2015
because of you i can smile again
i was troubled
i was lonely
i had lost hope
in anyone
in anything..
i had been searching for a reason
a reason for this
Wednesday, September 2, 2015
chanz's review: Yowamushi Pedal
Now it's time for me to resume my anime series that I have left a looong time ago.
One of them is Yowamushi Pedal.
From the pedal, you might have already guessed, it's about bicycle.
Bicycle road racing.
Wednesday, August 26, 2015
sembang chat dengan celcom
Sapa pernah buat benda ni?
Haha.
Best jugak.
Tapi lambat der mamat ni type.
Gua type lagi cepat.
His English is proper although having many grammatical errors. It's a good medium to interact with customers. I hope that whatever he told me here is correct..too many inaccurate information I got..
Tuesday, August 11, 2015
blinding love
have you ever came upon yourself and realized that what have you been doing for someone..
is exactly like the saying,
love is blindyou lost your priority just because of that person
you would go such length, so far just for their sake.
you would sacrifice your time just to be by their side
you would do anything, that they would ask of you.
Sunday, July 12, 2015
the headache(s)
kerap kali aku alami.
bukan migrain.
how to best describe it?
is it really just inadequate sleeping?
causal agent
how did this one person that you met able to affect your life entirely?
my life in these recent times, was all about this particular person.
Friday, July 10, 2015
soba ni itai yo
Mengapa kau menangis?
Padahal, aku belum menangis.
Kerna ku tahu,
kaulah yang lebih bersedih dari ku
Aku dah tak tahu
siapa antara kita yang merasa lebih pedih?
Hari ini seharusnya, menjadi hari tak bererti
Namun bila kita bersama, ia menjadi harta berharga
Ku ingin selalu bersamamu..
Apakah ada, hal yang bisa ku lakukan untuk dirimu?
Selalu untukmu..
Selamanya untukmu..
Ku ingin kau terus tersenyum selamanya
Semuanya; kebaikan hatimu
dan juga kehangatanmu yang begitu jujur
bagaikan bunga matahari
Mulai sekarang,
ku juga ingin mengirimkannya kepada mu
Kerna kau lah yang membuatku menyedari
adanya kebahagiaan di sini
Nun jauh di sana, masa depan cerah sedia menunggu
Seandainya suatu hari, kita terpisah pun
Teruslah menyusuri jalan kita masing-masing
Aku percaya di hujung jalan itu,
kita pasti akan bertemu lagi
Langkah yang kita tapaki
seharusnya tak sejalan
Namun sekarang
jalan itu telah menjadi satu arah
Kau yang selalu bersamaku
dan juga saat-saat sederhana kebersamaan kita
Ku berjanji takkan melupakan semuanya
Di hari saat kita memulai perjalanan
Di saat kita saling melambaikan tangan
Ku berharap agar kau terus tersenyum
Semuanya; kebaikan hatimu
dan juga kehangatanmu yang begitu jujur
bagaikan bunga matahari
Ku ingin membalas semuanya itu
Namun, kerana aku tahu dirimu
Ku rasa, kau akan mengatakan
"Semua ini, sudah cukup" kan?
Ku ingin selalu bersamamu
Apakah ada, hal yang bisa ku lakukan untuk dirimu?
Selalu untukmu..
Selamanya untukmu..
Ku ingin kau terus tersenyum selamanya
Semuanya; kebaikan hatimu
dan juga kehangatanmu yang begitu jujur
bagaikan bunga matahari
Mulai sekarang,
ku juga ingin mengirimkannya kepada mu
Kerna aku telah menemukan
makna kebahagiaan sesungguhnya..
terjemahan lirik kredit pada Nakari Amane
Wednesday, July 1, 2015
doa
ramai tak sedar akan kekuatan doa.
kita solat, kita doa, kita ikhtiar, kita tawakal.
selalu, bila akhirnya kita dapat apa yang kita nak tu..
ia adalah hasil dari doa-doa kita.
atau doa insan lain untuk kita.
mungkin pada masa lalu.
mungkin pada ketika dan saat itu ia dimakbulkan.
kita tak sedar.
sebabnya, kekadang yang kita minta tu bukanlah umpama apa yang kita bayangkan.
malah mungkin lebih baik, lebih elok.
aku pernah berdoa..
sering.
agar diberikan kekuatan.
iman.
keteguhan, ketetapan.
kerana aku mudah..
rapuh.
mudah sangat
terjerumus kepada perkara yang jauh.
dari rahmat-Nya.
bagi aku, itulah jihad paling besar kena lawan.
dalam meniti kehidupan harian,
aku bertemu dengan insan-insan yang telah ditakdirkan oleh Nya.
mengubah kehidupan aku
aku gembira.
bahagia.
mereka menguatkan aku.
agar sentiasa berada dalam landasan Mu.
bila mana aku sedar, yang doa aku itu dimakbulkan.
aku menangis.
kerna sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Mendengar.
apa yang dizahirkan mahupun hanya terdetik di dalam hati.
as-Sami'
hari demi hari,
jangan pernah putus.
panjatkan pengharapan.
dan sentiasa bersangka baik.
Sunday, June 21, 2015
refleksi
kenapa kita suka buat sesuatu yang kita tak suka?
benarkah kita tak ada pilihan?
atau kita sebenarnya penakut?
tak berani ambil risiko?
mahukan jalan mudah?
mahukan stability?
ramai aku jumpa..
menyatakan ketidakpuashatian
tidak merasa puas dengan kerja mereka
"bukan ini yang dicari.."
tak suka jabatan ini
tak suka company ini.
tak suka kerja ini.
tak usah aku bicara soal diri sendiri.
kalian yang membaca blog ini pun tentu tahu bagaimana aku rasa tentang....well.
panjang cerita nanti.
tldr; i am supposed to do something related to maths, physics or language. i'm good at it, very.
heyy i don't want to talk about myself.
sambung balik..
adakah kita tak bersyukur bila kita complain tentang hidup kita?
aku kira itu memang sifat manusia.
dah fitrah.
cumanya, sejauh mana kita punya complain tu bagi kesan pada diri kita?
adakah semakin dekat pada Maha Pencipta?
atau jauh dari rahmat-Nya?
semua orang nak hidup selesa.
seperti yang diujarkan Abraham Maslow, ringkasnya ada lima perkara kehendak manusia..
1) nak hidup selama boleh
2) nak sejahtera
3) nak kasih sayang dari yang lain
4) nak rasa hormat dari yang lain
5) nak capai impian atau ideal
jadi, bila mana kita tak merasa kita miliki salah satu dari lima ini...maka manusia akan rasa tidak puas.
tidak lengkap.
missing.
aku kira nombor 5 paling utama. dan paling ramai yang tidak berupaya memilikinya..
kerna setiap dari kita punya kehendak tersendiri. ideal masing-masing.
nombor 3?
itu aku kecapi...selalunya hanya sementara cuma.
we can't always get what we want.
kadang-kadang, bila kita tak dapat yang kita nak (seperti kat atas tu), kita selalu lupa..
yang kasih sayang Allah sebenarnya lebih dari segalanya.
nikmat yang dikurniakan kat kita.
kita selalu lupa.
aku pernah tulis sebelum ni...tentang redha.
inilah perkara paling payah untuk manusia nak buat.
memang payah.
aku rasa, kalaupun kita complain, merungut, sighing..
pastikan ia hanyalah luahan sahaja.
tak bermakna kita tak bersyukur bila kita merungut.
tujuannya hanyalah untuk kita lepaskan apa di dalam hati.
jangan dizahirkan dengan perbuatan yang menampakkan keingkaran.
ketidaksyukuran.
sentiasa doa.
yang terbaik.
dan sangka yang baik-baik...
إن شاء الله
Saturday, May 9, 2015
heartache
KU TAK PERCAYA KITA
CINTA TAK HARUS MEMILIKI..
LALU MENGAPAAAAA
HATI TERASA SAKIT
#random
someone new
you know how do a child be able to brighten a couple's life?
because it's new.
something new.
someone.
Friday, May 8, 2015
i am not at fault
is it human nature to put the blame on others?
I AM NOT AT FAULT.
Labels:
blame,
fault,
human,
human nature,
just human,
psychology,
wrong
Sunday, April 19, 2015
we might have met
...i wonder.
if we might have met?
on the roads somewhere?
maybe at the mall?
oh i know. at the cafeteria?
wait wait....
at the bookstore?
maybe while lining up to pay for our groceries..
oh was that you who were wearing this peculiar black jacket with abstract design that day?
but your face never really caught my eye?
now now..was that you in the monorail..
which i had a glimpse on?
wearing a lovely red dress with your long hair
such mesmerizing eyes?
reading your books
staring at the windows..
gorgeous.
oh have we talked to each other?
could be, momentarily?
could we have shared..
"excuse me"
"it's my pleasure"
oh yeah i know.
we might have glanced at each other.
have we smiled to each other that day?
maybe it's just common virtue
and yet..
we never knew each other
we were strangers.
no matter what had happened to us then..
it didn't matter.
because in the end,
we finally met.
it's a miracle.
i'm glad i met you, i hope you know that.
Tuesday, April 14, 2015
all i need
ku tercungap-cungap
oh kenapa
tidak ku belajar dari kesilapan
ku hilang erti percaya
sungguhpun telah ku cuba
untuk pulih
masih mampukah kau lihat
jiwa dan hatiku
duka lara ini tiada lagi
saat kau peluk ku dalam dakapanmu
pintaku
jangan musnahkan segala ku perlu
jadikan hati ini tempat lebih baik
berikan ku alasan untuk percaya
jangan hancurkan aku
telah kau buka pintu ini
tolong jangan tutup kembali..
ku di penjuru lagi
ku harap mampu lepaskannya
ya aku tahu hanya selangkah
untuk pulihkan segalanya
pintaku
jangan padamkan saki baki diriku
jadikan hati ini tempat lebih baik
telah ku cuba berkali-kali
namun palsu cuma
hapuskan dinding ini
jangan hancurkan aku
aku begitu ingin percaya
ini yang hakiki
selamatkan aku
dari ketakutan ini
jangan musnahkan aku
pintaku..
WITHIN TEMPTATION
ALL I NEED
Monday, April 13, 2015
repeat
i feel like our life is repeating itself..
not just our life.
our world.
our universe.
they are a circle.
that's why the Earth is round?
rotating over and over again..
our galaxy?
my point is...we tend to repeat our history.
or perhaps, history will always have a way to repeat itself?
Sunday, April 5, 2015
save me once again
bagai batu aku karam
makin jauh dari pandangan
semua cinta yang telah ku temui
tak bisa kembalikan aku
ku terkapar keseorangan..
jangan kau bilang ini penamatnya
resah sungguh dalam hati
ku mungkin kan sesat lagi
oh terima kasih ku ucapkan
kesabaran dan waktu
yang telah kau berikan
ku tak pernah menyangka
kau rupa-rupanya
cuba selamatkan aku
bebaskan ku dari bebayang ini
yang membejatkan bahuku
jangan pernah bilang
ini kesudahannya
belum lagi belum
ku sedar aku lemah
jiwa ini mahu lebih
dari yang ku perlukan
ku berdiri di hujung hentian
bimbang
kekosongan dalam diri
tolong jangan tinggalkan aku
ku mohon
sungguh-sungguh pada mu
terima kasih ku ucapkan
ku tak pernah menyangka
kau rupa-rupanya
cuba selamatkan aku
wahai kamu pemilik hati
tolonglah
would you save me once again...
- Olahan dari lagu The Rasmus -
Saturday, April 4, 2015
Friday, April 3, 2015
morphogenetic
kekadang aku rasa memang wujudnya satu medan telepati yang dipanggil morphogenetic field. apa itu morphogenetic field?
aku mula diperkenalkan dengan terma ini melalui game 3DS. 999.
senang cerita, teori ini (hipotesis mungkin) mengatakan terdapat satu medan yang menghubungkan kita semua tanpa kita sedari. sungguhpun jauh kita berada. macam wireless. kita nampak tak? tak kan? tapi bagaimana boleh menghubungkan antara peranti dengan peranti?
mungkin pseudoscience.
Friday, March 20, 2015
kiseki
kehidupan ini dipenuhi dengan misteri.
sering kali jua terselitnya keajaiban.
"oh tak sangka!"
takjub.
sesuatu yang kita anggap remeh seperti pertemuan.
Wednesday, March 11, 2015
tentang puisi (kah?)
Hai.
Lama tak berblog.
Pembaca bisu blog ini ramai (baca: dari pelbagai golongan) bagi komen secara peribadi pada saya.
"blog sudah jadi blog puitis lepas grad"
"tak faham...puitis sangat"
"ada bakat..bila nak bukukan?"
Terima kasih kerana masih peduli akan blog ini wahai sobat sekalian.
Monday, February 2, 2015
let go
why couldn't i let it go?
why wasn't i?
why am i still stuck on you?
why hadn't i been able to forget?
i am so tired of this
wasn't this too much for me to bear?
why couldn't i just get on with my life?
why couldn't i?
wasn't this enough already?
hadn't i been going through so much pain?
Saturday, January 17, 2015
Saturday, January 3, 2015
be with you
when you found someone you care about..
someone you like
katniss and rue
i haet haircut
how do i get a good haircut?
i haet haricut.
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